The birds woke me up today with their beautiful good morning song.
I felt the warmth of the sunshine on my face through the curtains.
It was light, my eyes seemed to sparkle and my lips turned into a smile.
I seem to be uplifted, more able to spring out of bed.
It’s a fresh new day.
The SAD syndrome now seems to be fading away.
I feel more ready to discover life.
I feel something has clicked inside of me, I hope this is it, not a false hope …
The start of the real me, remind myself religion has completely gone, no more hold over me, no more battles.
Turning my inside into pure joy rejecting the rubbish as much as I can.
It’s time to live completely free.
Trying to still the mind is at times like trying to tame a wild lion.
I have times when I try to balance my thoughts and my feelings only for them to come crashing forward with power like the ocean beating against the rocks.
Minds are amazing things but they can work against you at times. Have you noticed how creative people suffer with their mind, it’s almost as if creativity comes hand in hand with a wild mind.
The mind can be so exciting feeding and releasing wonderful creative things, but the mind can also trigger darkness. The mind plus outside influences can be a recipe for disaster at times.
I have been studying the mind and the unconscious part of the brain is in constant conflict with the conscious part of the brain, this is meant to bring harmony but in certain types of people it brings anxiety as the unconscious part just can’t handle reality. If you imagine most creative people are deep thinkers some may even be considered day dreamers, they usually display roller coaster of emotions, dark and light moments and even prone to depression. Your best creative moments don’t stop in the dark times, it’s usually your functioning that gets affected. You bring forth defence mechanisms, you notice that you are not the same as others they seem to effortlessly go through life. You seem to have to endlessly battle with yourself.
It is of comfort to know that we are not the only ones famous artists, writers, musicians, psychologists etc have all suffered in their lives too.
It has been medically proven that if you meditate this can help bring some balance, but this too depends on the person to what degree.
Is there really an answer I’m unsure maybe just knowing and accepting that you are this type will release some of the torment, being thankful for the creativity that comes from this powerful mind. The mind is totally mind blowing from what I have discovered it can be rewired to a certain degree but this requires knowledge and respect, finding out how it functions plus time, we have wonderful clever people doing studies on the brain as you read this. They are discovering so much more about the brain how it can shrink, grow, how parts can become more dominate … Absolutely Amazing!